Nightmare All The Time
Okay.. I’ll start here. I’m Asian girl (Actually now lady, But still feels like a girl 😋 ). And at the moment I have migrated to a Another country so far from My motherland and working a full time Engineer and take care of a toddler as well. So, I have already done in my student life and don’t want to be a student sitting in a classroom again.
That’s simply me … ✌️
Oki.. now the story began..
I had to take an exam when I was in grade 13 in my school before entering university. Called Advanced Level. This exam is a very important exam for many Sri Lankan students of my generation. Because if you get higher result in this exam, you can go to a government university. Government universities in Sri Lanka are well structured, recognized and very standard and we can get 100% free education there. Including hostel facilities, low cost meals and many opportunities for scholarships. So this exam is very competitive. Students try their best to get into a good university with good courses.
So it’s the same for me. I did the exam ON 2011. You know, I was able to get an average result only. I was able to get into a good university. But not the course I dreamed of. So I went for my second attempt. I studied hard and then I got selected to my dream university plus my dreamed course.
Now the best part. So after 4 years at uni, 6+ years in the industry, I’m now a full time employee, who has a cool family and living peacefully.
But …
You know what? The shadow of that exam still lingers in my dreams. Sometimes, I find myself in a world where the exam is due tomorrow, and I haven’t studied a single thing. I’m left grappling with uncertainty about what to write. When I eventually wake from the dream, it takes a few moments to shake off the haunting feeling, and it’s a truly a miserable feeling.
I’ve been having this terrible nightmare in lots of night for more than 10 years now.
It’s fascinating to think about this. I recently discussed this with a few friends who very well did in the same exam and have gone on to lead successful lives in education. Surprisingly, every single one of them shared the same experience — that recurring dream. These friends now hold doctorates, work as university lecturers, government employees earning very attractive income, and even the very funny and carefree guys as well.
See all of them have this same nightmare.
So, after all, what I’ve come to realize is that this exam has had a more significant impact on our lives than we may have thought, which is why we still carry it with us even 10 to 15 years later.
And whether we believed we weren’t consciously aware of being affected by this, we have indeed been influenced by this exam, perhaps unknowingly.
I can’t suggest removing this exam from the education system as a solution. This exam has played a significant role in getting me to where I am today, with half of my current accomplishments attributed to it. However, we must find a way to address the issue of depression associated with it.
I welcome all the thoughts from the readers.
